December 2009
14 posts
perfect form
No one in the world is perfect, but I am the most perfect form of myself for the moment.
Although, that sounds really conceited- I don’t mean to be, but I fully believe it. I believe that there is no better version of myself to be dealing with the present than the version that I am currently.
Even though many can disagree and say that they’ve seen a better me. I’ve come to the...
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Bold all the things you’ve done in 2009
Did something you said you would never do.
Paid for someone who said they would pay you back but never did.
Lied about where you were.
Discovered a new musician.
Made something for a friend.
Got a new phone.
Got a new iPod/Zune/Mp3 player.
Watched three or more episodes of Saturday Night Live.
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just dance
just dance, gonna be okay, just dance…
As stupid as that sounds, it is so true. I had a scary thought to day and all I did was stress about it. Then someone simply said, “dance.”
It made everything better. It got my mind off things and made me smile. Starting the good times early. Just buy dancing.
Random sporadic dancing will be happening in 2010 :]
time
when you want more of it, there seems to never be enough. But when you have a lot of it, it doesn’t seem to pass by quick enough. It is some thing that never pleases at the direct moment, but over time something you are so grateful for. And when you’re having a horrible time- time lags, but when you’re having a blast time is gone in an instant- Oh time!
Some say that...
reflection
I was working on an entry called “slack-tide” and I ran into a problem. I couldn’t find a way to formulate my feelings in a sentence that everyone and anyone could not just understand, but also feel my emotions.
But you can’t do that. I can’t do that. Because I realized that the events and things that I go through are mine and mine alone. They are what make me into...
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doesn't phase me...
So late last night, I wrote an entry thanking him for everything- but most importantly for finally giving my answer. Although, it may not be the answer I wanted in the end, I have to look at it as though he is finally letting me move on. I can start getting my closure.
That is something I have not been able to get in the 2 months since we have broken up. Sure I have done things that would suggest...
Thank you.
Surprise, surprise- today is your lucky day. But not mine. You all get two entries for today because after I noticed something earlier tonight, I have to write.
Maybe he reads this. Maybe he doesn’t. But he did give me my answer. Although it wasn’t the answer I had been hoping for- it’s an answer none the less. I can’t feel stupid anymore because I’m no longer...
for your entertainment
F.Y.E; For your entertainment, or rather for their entertainment, readers come to my blog to read the daily happenings of my life. To see the new outlook or wisdom I sought out today.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad you all enjoy my blog-even if it is for scholastic distraction, light reading on the toilet, or to stalk me online. But what you find entertaining is what I see as growth. I...
its my drug...
So last night after killing myself with back to back studying and finals I decided that the best thing i could do for myself would be to go to bed early. So I went to bed around 10 p.m.
I thought I was going to be good in the morning for my test/presentation because I was actually going to get a full night of sleep. But did I think wrong. I woke myself up around 3 in the morning. I woke up from a...
suggestions...
I recently have made the great discovery, or rather parallel, that life is like the website Pandora. At pandora, you type in your band, artist or song of choice and then pandora generates a customized playlist surrounding your selection. It offers you suggestions and based on wether or not you like the song it suggests- it then the playlist becomes more personalized to your liking.
And that is...
the way it started...
So I was on the search for love. I found a few potentials, dated them and picked one. He meant the world to me. I fell in love with him. He moved, told me I wasn’t worth it and I was heart broken.
The break up broke me. I made a lot of mistakes after it. I didn’t like the person I was becoming. So one day after a month of bad behavior, I decided to change. I admitted to my mistakes...
its been a while...
I know it has been a really long time since I’ve written in here. I would have written sooner, but when I logged in it hurt. So trust me when I say that writing in here is hard. It’s hard because it documented the journey I took to find someone to love. And from that journey, I went and put my heart on the line- when in reality I knew I’d end up hurting myself and that he’d...